The ONLY thing I will regret when I have another baby is that my Remy will no longer be my baby. I know in that moment as my new child is placed in my eager and tired arms that Remy will be transformed the next time I look at him. Something happens in those moments. Right before the baby comes from us our last child is still so small and we do baby them. The next time we look at them to introduce the new brother or sister they look so tall, so old, so very big. It is in that moment that we realize we have had a young man or lady in our midst and we had chosen to look past it. We had chosen to only see our sweet baby.
My little Remy still likes to fall asleep in my arms at night, although it is growing less from day to day, and he tents the blankets over himself and holds my hand as he falls asleep.
But a new baby is calling my name and I feel him or her stronger everyday. I find myself very aggravated and ready to start making that new baby. I can't believe that we are really so very close to having a new baby growing into our family. How can the dreams of a third child still seem so new and so vital...just like the first? How can a mother's heart be so big?
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In reading these lines, I get goose bumps. Yes, you have a very big and good heart, and I wish you everything beautiful in the world.
Aw, that is such a sweet picture!
What I've always noticed (when I have a new baby) is how big the older child's hands look. They have baby hands and then when the new baby is here, their hands look sooooo much bigger! (Weird, I know.)
This hit home, girl!! I have tears welling up!!! It's truly amazing how much love a Momma holds in her heart for her babies. It grows even more with each one.
Your blogs always touch my soul girl. I remember when I was pregnant with Lindsay and looking at Melanie and thinking to myself, "Will she still know how much I love her?" Evidently she did, because as soon as she was introduced to her baby sister, she squeezed my hand and said those three little words "I love y'all" I knew right then and there that my love between all three of my girls was more than enough for all of them, and they felt it. You are going to make a wonderful new mom Chelita and those boys are going to be some wonderful big brothers. No matter how young they may be they will always know that you love them.
I love that picture and remember so fondly the days when my little nanny charge Dragonite used to fall asleep in my arms and holding my hand - every single night, even at 8 years old. Sigh - I miss that like crazy.
oh goodness-that was very touching. I know when the time is right and you are finally blessed with that next child your family will grow even more stronger. you have a great family and them boys are gonna love that tiny baby so much. it is weird how much the youngest changes when a tiny new one arrives...it has happened to me. but they understand that they will have to give some of their momma up for that new one. i dont think they will mind too much! they are gonna be so preoccupied with something else , I think! I know mine were. LOVIN ON THAT BABY
OMG, that picture is precious! This post really hit home for me as we are expecting our third one (another girl!) in just 4 more months! My Michelle still seems like my baby in many ways even though she is now 4. And I remember just how HUGE Matthew looked on my lap when I was tandem nursing him and his sister. I am very excited to think of another little nursling. :)
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