God has shown me again and again how even the "crappiest" situation is used by him. Sometimes now when I am going through a moment of burden I hear him say to me, "Wait, see what I will do, don't lose hope!"
Today for example, the boys were outside playing on this beautiful saturday. They found a dead bird. Both boys were so upset! They love birds and we have studied them in depth in our homeschool for sometime now. I know Remy sat kneeled low to the ground pondering this poor little bird for some time. I allowed it. He says it is a goldfinch, I haven't looked, I just can't. Daddy can clean him away when he is home this evening. It was enough to see my sweet boys faces, the lips curved down, a bit of the light in their eyes dim, shoulders slumped. It was sad, people, sad.
All you can do as a human being is allow your loved one to hurt, to just feel the pain. You can't quicken this process. You can't make it better. You can only sit and listen if need be or just sit in the silence and know they know you are there. We human beings are not made to console the way God can. I was reminded of this today.
I firmly believe as of late that God allows things to happen that will bring about what he wants, his will. I felt inadequate to console my boys. But it wasn't for me. It was for the LORD! He wanted to console and teach my boys.
I held our daily Bible time and something magical that God does everytime in our family happened. God spoke to my boys and loved them. He had that intimate moment he so desired to have with my boys. The thing he orchestrated happened with such ease and stealth! It may seem small to some. My heart is all a pitter patter over it. The one I love the most, God, really, really, really, is in love with MY CHILDREN! It is amazing!
This verse came up!
But I will sacrifice unto thee with the voice of thanksgiving; I will pay that that I have vowed. Salvation is of the Lord.
Now the study was over the fact that GOD is the only one with power over life and death. SEE, I told you! Through this study we talked about the fact that God has raised Jesus from the dead in order to save our soul for eternity. We also talked about the miracles Jesus preformed while he walked here on this earth.
It was after our time together that Remy came up to me and said, "Mommy all of this reminds me of that poor little bird." I told him, yes, it did me, too. The conversation continued to include that he was okay now. God had been there, that little bird didn't perish on accident, it was time, and God knew it. It was God's power. That little bird did not go alone. God was with him.
PEOPLE! My heart is so full. God's timing is so perfect. But I realized today in a big way, yea I always knew, but today I KNOW! God loves my children as much as he tells me he loves me! To think of the love that goes with them everywhere! Oh God, thankyou! It is truly better than the time I realized years ago that YOU loved me, really loved me!
God consoled my children in a moment! The light came back to Remy's eyes and his heart was light! If God loved that bird enough to be with him in the end, the same would stand for him!
So! Be on the lookout for those precious moments! Witness God spending time with your child. It will just MELT YOU into a warm and gooey mush!