My Mother's mother has been ill in old age for some time. She has lived a hard life. It has been an adult life full of sadness that has turned to bitterness. She has pushed everyone but her daughters away. And not because she didn't try...her daughters love her and tend to her even when she is hard to love.
I stopped contact after many episodes of her saying really horrible things about me, my husband, and that my child was sick because of us. It was so bad. I have already grieved the grandmother I loved in my childhood many years ago. I grieved hard too. I stayed up nights and cried to my husband as he soothed me.
I am okay.
I need your prayers for her. She does not know the Lord. In every Christmas card I give her, I still send them every year, I write to her about the Lord. I don't know if this has touched her. I have no idea.
I am so upset that she could pass away tonight and not know Jesus. :( She pretty much thinks a good person goes to heaven. And she thinks she was good and everyone else was rotten around her. PLEASE, PLEASE, pray for my Ninny Austin. Pray that she finds the presence of the Lord soon.
They don't think she will make it through the night. She went into the hospital soon after my other grandmother got out. So we have had both grandmothers ill lately. My mother is very stressed. She is very worried. And she is just a little girl right now, grieving for the mother she always longed for and will pretty much never have now. I know what she is feeling without words. She cried tonight because her mother is in and out of it and tied down to the bed so she will leave the lines on her alone. I can't even imagine. I just can't. :(
She went in for what we thought a normal emergency in her aging. She had shortness of breath and hadn't urinated in days. She doesn't say anything until it is so bad. She doesn't want to be in the hospital...so she waits.
It has went way downhill since then.
Pray firstly for salvation, that the Lord is waiting for her when her time comes. And then pray for her to make it through so she can mend some relationships. She thought she saw me and my children when she was out of it during the last hospital stay she had. So she longs for me and my children...she just can't bring herself to loving us in person. Lastly pray for my mother...it is never easy to watch a parent creeping towards the end. It is never easy to care for a bitter mother you long to approve of you. It is never easy to have both your mother and husband's mother both ill at the same time.
My mother is newly going to church and new at depending on the Lord. Just pray for her. :(
And pray for me...I am so worried that my grandmother will just wait too long. It crushes my heart. :(
